Thursday, August 6, 2009

Our new morning routine

When I walked into Grace's room to wake her this morning, she was snuggled with a blanket, lying on her side. Though she was sound asleep, she was smiling. I sat down on her bed and began to rub her back. Her eyes fluttered open.

"Morning, Mommy."

"Good Morning, Sweetheart."

"Is it time to get up?"

"Yup."

It took a few more minutes of stroking her back to rouse her. When she finally sat up, rubbing her eyes, she said, "Is this the first day of school?"

"Yes, baby, it is."

And with that she leapt into my arms for a hug, and I could feel the smile on her face as she buried her head in my neck. I helped her dress and then we headed downstairs where Craig was making pancakes with Grandma's strawberry sauce on the side. Together we packed her lunch, and once breakfast was ready I went to retrieve Julia.

After the pancakes were consumed, I herded the girls onto the porch from some first day of school pictures. I knew I wouldn't be bringing my camera with me to school, so these would be my only shots. As much as I like to document every moment of my kid's lives, the camera can also create distance, and I wanted to fully experience Grace's first drop off for Kindergarten.

She held my hand for the entire walk to school, down our driveway, across the street, over the railroad bridge and up the stairs to the front door. I only let go when she sat down with her new classmates in the gymnasium (classes meet in the gym and then are dismissed to their classrooms). Parents lined the edge of the room, smiling at their kids, taking pictures, or hugging children with nervous tears.

Kindergarteners were dismissed first, and being the first day there was some confusion. Grace didn't know where to walk, and she turned to look at me for direction.

"MOMMY, I don't know what to do!"

I thought she might cry, but an older student stepped forward to guide her, and a little boy behind her reached and touched her shoulder to soothe her fears. Craig and I met her at the gym exit, so we could walk her to class. Her smile returned, and I knew we were okay.

During orientation we had been instructed to make our goodbyes brief. When we entered the class, we walked Grace to her chair and bent over for kisses goodbye. She kissed me quickly, already intent on the puzzle in front of her. Craig and Julia were next, and as Craig stood with Julia in his arms, the tears began. Not from Grace. Not from me, and not from Craig.

"I stay with Grace. I want to see Grace," Julia cried.

By the time we reached the hall her cries were louder, and she reached her arms out in vain towards Grace's classroom.

"I want to see Grace. I want to see Grace."

Craig and I looked at each other, eyes brimming with tears. We knew this might happen. Julia adores her sister. They are the best playmates. However, we weren't quite prepared for the volume of her protests. As we exited the building, another mother said, "Now that's the mark of a great big sister--when her little sister cries that much when she says goodbye." Craig balanced Julia on his side with one arm and held my hand with the other. He squeezed my hand, and silent tears slid down my cheeks.

"She's so happy to be there."

"Yeah, she is. I miss her already."

Her birthday is tomorrow, but we will celebrate tonight. Craig leaves tomorrow afternoon for a wedding in California, and he doesn't want to miss seeing her open presents. I have a cake baking in the oven to be decorated with mice (Grace's request), and then I'll move onto making the macaroni and cheese (her other request). Tomorrow morning, Grammy will arrive from Indianapolis to surprise the birthday girl and help me in Craig's absence.

Now I have the rest of the day to fill. Or at least until 3pm when we walk back over the railroad bridge to meet Grace and bring her home. It's the first day of school for my first baby, and while there may be tears in my eyes, I couldn't be happier for her.

9 comments:

Sarah, Andy, Murdoch, and Deucey said...

Love that post! I am crying as well. That is still several years off for me but I think I would have the same silent tears. I hope that Murdoch and Thayer have such a close relationship. Can't wait to see you in about 10 days!

S

Anne and Whitney: Up, Down and All Around said...

i FINALLY have a computer... yours is the first blog i checked and i am so happy i did - i loved reading the story you wrote about grace's first day of kindergarten! that is the BEST that julia loves grace so much that she cried her name and did not want to leave her. i can't wait to hear more about how her first day went! lynne is so excited to come surprise her and see you guys tomorrow :) thinking of you guys on such a big day!!!

Rebecca said...

Tears here, too. What a great story.

MBR said...

My mom has always taken our first day of school pictures on our porch. It's a nice record of how we grew over the years.

What a sweet story! I bet she comes home with great stories about all she learns!

Ellen said...

Thanks so much EVERYONE for your great comments. Grace came home pretty tired (and a little cranky), but that's to be expected.

We had a boatload of paperwork to complete tonight--our first homework assignment! I'm sure this is just the beginning (though I really hope Grace's homework isn't too much).

I hope tomorrow's drop off is easier on Julia, but I'm not holding my breath. When I put her to bed, she asked for stories "about Julia school". She'll start on August 20 (2 days/week), and I can't believe it. Two in school, I may go wild.

Unknown said...

Wow! Great story, terrific memory. It's wonderful that they got so close before Grace started school.

kathy said...

Ellen,
You brought tears to my eyes
as well..how sweet..how touching..
you can be very proud of both Grace and Julia..what wonderful bonding
the two girls have.
Happy birthday to Grace!
God bless all. Love, Aunt Kathy

Sydney said...

What a great post! My Alex starts school in a couple of weeks. I know he's excited, but I'm afraid I'll be the one in tears! How sweet that Julia loves her big sister so much.

mcm said...

Sniff, sniff, me too!
And I could totally relate to Grace's "Mommy I don't know what to do!" -- recall my story about MY first day of kindergarten, when I didn't know where to get off the bus and had to ride back to school...
I guess in those days there was more of a sink or swim attitude?
Hopefully Julia's school experience will be positive -- with Grace as a model, I bet it will be.
love,
m