Because...ohmygod I have so much to do and not enough time and I spent two weeks writing a 72 page report and I had my big meeting yesterday and now they want me to present my results and CRAP I'm a writer not a talker and they want me to talk IN FRONT OF OTHER PEOPLE and I don't do that but I have to do that and I don't want to.
Because...it's already mid december and we don't have a tree or anything related to christmas done and when will it get done because I HAVE TO TALK TO REAL ADULTS ON MONDAY and I wanted to get our tree and drink egg nog and be merry and now I'm all I CAN'T GIVE A PRESENTATION didn't they know I'M A WRITER NOT A TALKER.
Because..I turn scarlet red when I have to talk to people and I have no control over this and the simple fact that I turn red makes me more embarrassed than you can imagine and I HATE being embarrassed and did I mention that I'm a writer and not a talker unless you mean one on one and then I probably talk too much.
Because...I have to put together a power point and I haven't made one in five years so the one I make this weekend will be CRAP and my talk will be TERRIBLE and I will turn red and be EMBARRASSED and if I don't start breathing soon I will pass out.
Return Monday afternoon to see if I am still alive or dead from hyperventilation.
PS. If you came for news about Grammie-Bonnie. She was here and allowed me the time to write said 72 page report. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I promise to write more about her visit when I get past this spell.
7 comments:
GOOD LUCK! You will be fabulous -- and you will knock their socks off. I know it.
Ellen,
You are so amazing ...you write
so well and I am sure you can
speak too...Abe Lincoln said,:We all
out our pants on the same way, one
leg at a time...No one man is better
than the other...
Confidence! Think of speaking to
only one person there ....you
will be fabulous..just one step
at a time and one word at a time.
Congratulations! Breathe..you
will do great..No one could do any
better. Congratulations! God bless.
Love, Aunt Kathy
Repeat: "It's not about me; it's not about me; it's not about me".
You can do this. Focus on the material.
Imagine them all naked! :-) hehe!
DON'T imagine them naked! The images of those old wrinkled administrators will leave scar tissue behind in your brain.
Good luck! You will be fine. I am not a huge fan of public speaking either - a glass of wine works well :) Wear a turtle neck - that is what I do - you can't see the red climb up my neck that way.
BTW - I just finished 'The Hour I First Believed' by Wally Lamb. Do you want it? Let me know - I will ship it to you if you do.
S
I feel the exact same way about speaking in public - i would take sarah's advice about the wine, except that seems to make my face turn red, so maybe a shot of tequila would be better :) good thing it is winter, a turtle neck always looks good and is weather appropriate --- you will be great, good luck tomorrow!!!!!!
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